The Idea Of You

My boy Dave Matthews has an amazing song...The Idea Of You.

Have you ever fell hard for the idea of someone. Goodness, I know I have...several times and heck probably a couple times with the same person. How crazy is that. For those that know me, it is to be expected though.

I love the idea of people and what could be. Isn't it a fun ride to let your mind go on, just thinking about the what ifs and letting yourself get lost in it? What a fantasy, but that is truly what it is, only a fantasy, because those people can rarely be the idea of what you think of them. In those amazing cases though, they are simply more.

I had that happen to me the other day. I adored the idea of someone and I found out that they are much more than just the idea that I knew and came to cherish over the past years. Once I was hit with that realization it took me a couple moments to bounce back. I was so stunned that I was actually called out on it. I still remember how hot my face got when that happened.

The idea of everything made everything such a bold reality. Fuzzy lines became so sharp and crisp, these lines were hardly ever there before and here they were staring me right in the face. I could see every little detail that had been made obscure had a bright light shining upon it so that I could not only see and register it, but also remember it.

The Idea of this person was a lot better I must say. The idea let's us hold onto something that may not be ours and something that may not even truly exisit in the first place. Once you lose that idea you face the reality of a person and the reality is something to be cherished as well but it usually not what you think it is.

The idea is so much more romantic, thrilling, passionate, endearing...I could go on but won't.

So here is to the Idea of You and the reality that you are. Equally important and cherished always!

A Watched Pot Never Boils

Isn't the the damn truth! Plus you can never will someone to call you either. I hate having to wait on someone else to get back with me that is notorious on either getting back to me at the very last minute or not getting back to me at all.

Sigh.

Why do I even put up with this kind of behavior? Because I have a lot invested into this relationship and I don't give up that easy. Sad excuse isn't it? Maybe, maybe not.

I was suppose to hear something yesterday, but in classic style nothing. So I am hoping that I will hear something today, but I highly doubt it and me facing the truth, I know I will probably hear nothing. Good from afar but far from good. Although, they may shock the hell out of me as well, they have been known to do that as well.

Ever Have That Feeling That You Are Being Watched?

I love that someone posted an anonymous comment to my last blog. But with me being me I am now wondering who that person was. It will drive me crazy for about an hour or so than I will be off to the next thing.

Dancing the Nite Away

Last nite I went out for a happy hour that was indeed very happy. It was with a great group of people that I always have a great time with.

It had been a long time since I had been dancing. I mean sure, cut a little groove thing here and there in a random bar to whatever the jukebox has on but that is about it.

Last nite was something that I had needed in a long time, to be twirled on the dance floor while laughing so my cheeks were hurting. All while wearing 4 inch heels and not missing a beat or step with my partner.

So yeah, my feet are a little sore this morning (this probably has something to do with the heels) and my legs feel like I ran a 5k last nite but it was all well worth it.

At that point in time, life was damn near perfect. Don't you just love evenings like that?

Nothing Sexier...

Than a military man or a SWAT member. There is something about them being in uniform with a high and tight and having at least tow gun one them, one normally strapped to their thigh. Seriously, nothing is sexier than that, well, maybe a certain pro surfer riding 30 foot waves but that is another story all together.

I am very surprised that I did not marry a man in this line of work. I did date a few men that were military one even being in special forces, but in the end none of those relationships worked out. I truly think it is because of the fact that I am a dominant female and those men are normally dominant men so there is a power struggle there.

But damn, does it get any better than this:

Times Are Tough

It is very hard going through the past month with J laid off. I know it is very hard on him simply becuase he is the kind of guy that wants to be out there working and is happiest when he is.

I feel bad because I have gone through the want ads for him and there just isn't anything out there and if it is I bet he is up againist 100+ people for that one position.

I hope this economy bounces soon so he can get back to his normal self. I also know that we are not the only ones in this situation and we are very lucky that I still am employed and that we are able to keep up with everyting that we have.

Insanely Jealous

What would you do if you knew where Dave Matthews Band was recording their next studio album? Would you go there to try and get a glimpse of the guys? I can't tell you what I would do because well, I would probably stalk Dave to say the least, but check out what these fans did and how they were rewarded!