Sunday, May 30, 2010

Off Switch

Thoughts racing but to where as there is no finish line in sight. Raching in my mind in every direction or could thebe chasing? is it me, my past or my future? Chasing what, chasing whom? Is it me, my past or my future? Will my thoughts ever get tired, run out of breath or develop vertigo. It seems as I age they gain momentum. Racing around like the millions of people in New Tork City during rush hour. Will I ever get a chance to sit and let my mind go blank or am I trapped in my thoughts?

How many others think like I do? I can't be the only one who doesn't have an off switch.

Monday, May 3, 2010

I'm Back....

So I took the blog down for awhile because I was searching for employment and I didn't want my name to pop if an employer did a search for me.

Well guess what, last week I started a new job. This was after 7 months of being laid off. I have to say it is with a company that I really like, the people are great and I love being on an active site again. If you don't know, I am in the construction field.

So now I am back, refreshed and better then ever. I realize how truly blessed I am and how much I really have to be thankful for. Seven months and being able to maintain not only my sanity but how I live my life just makes me know how blessed I am.

So here we go again...

Tuesday, January 19, 2010


Friday I went on an interview and I really wanted this job. I got the call today that I was simply overqualified for the position. This really bums me out because even though it was an entry level position, it paid pretty well and it had room for a lot of advacement.

I was told that it is going to be okay and I truly know it is. I just hate that I oversold myself in the interview even though I was told not to by the recruiter. Sigh. Today is day 113 of being unemployed and I am dying to get back into the work force.

I am just really bummed.

Sunday, January 17, 2010

When You Have A Gut Feeling...

It is normally right! Why does it work that way?

I had a situation where my gut was telling me something and no matter how hard I didn't want to believe it and how many times I was told that it wasn't true, after a bit of good research on my is true. And my gut knew it the entire time.

How is it that your gut knows this? What is it that makes you know the truth in the deepest pit of your stomach. And how is it that we as people can take that feeling and push it aside hoping for another answer.

When am I going to learn to trust my gut and not let these people into my life? Now I just have to remind myself not to let this person into my personal life. Sigh. Why can't it be easier? Why does this person want to make it this complicated?

Saturday, January 16, 2010

It Has Been Awhile...

I have been out of the blogging world for awhile now and it is because I have been laid off and I don't want to publish anything due to the fact that I don't want a place of potential employment to come across this blog.

I figured that I would continue to write my posts though and when I find employment make my blog visible to the world I write this for myself.

2010 is going to be a year of one big goal for get back into shape. This one will be a little tricky for me though until I get my HUGE tattoo finished. I am 18 hours into it and only have about 6 hours left...yay! And no, I will not be posting any images on my blog. All I will say it covers my ENTIRE left rib cage and 1/3 of my back. It is all sunflower heads and is truly beautiful. It was done by the ever talented Trevor Collis at Iron Age in the Loop. While getting my massive back piece, I can't work out for two weeks after each session and right now we are having sessions every two to three weeks. So that put my next day in the gym on January 27th and than my next session is February 3rd. See my problem!

I would like to drop at least 25 pounds in 2010. I would love to lose around 40 pounds. I know it isn't about inches, etc., but let's just day I would love to be a size 6 on December 31, 2010. It isn't a lofty goal....but still one I will have to really work at and I have never really had to work at my weight...welcome to my 30's! :)

I am still on the hunt for a job. I went on an interview on Friday and even though it is a big pay cut it is something that I believe I would enjoy doing and is a foot in the door at a great company. So I know you aren't reading this, but please cross your fingers for me. It would be a great boost for me to land this position and get back to work.

Thursday, September 10, 2009

My Mirena

A couple weeks ago I went to my doctor to get the Mirena IUD. I had heard mixed reviews about it but I thought for the cost of my co-pay why not have birth control for 5 years? $20 for 5 years of birth control, I think that is the best deal I have come across in a long time.

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Oh Joy

So the upcoming weekend is one that I am dreading. J's best friend is getting married...for the second time. This upcoming Saturday is the bachlor party. It isn't so much that I mind the bachelor party and all that jazz, but I am wondering why for #2. That part I just don't get. I mean J didn't get one because we were married in Hawaii so no one bothered, which still kind of ticks me off but that is a different subject entirely.

So I am not a stickler for bachelor parties at all. I really think guys should go out and have a great time like us women do. And trust me I had a BALL on mine. So J told me the planand it was along the long of golf than back for a poker tourney that involved a lot of drinking. His friend really ins't a bar or strip club kind of guy so no biggie. J mentioned crashing over there since he will more than likely be drunk. I would rather him be safe than out on the road after drinking so all things are good on that front...for the time being.

Well, this guys' fiance is having her party on the same nite. She and all of her girlfriends are going out to bars to get trashed and do gods know what else besides drink if you catch my drift.
I have always had a problem with this woman, (bac k story) she tried to hook J up with one of her friends (who he was seeing before he and I started dating)right when J and I moved into together. This was after she asked me how our relationship was going and if I was serious about him etc. I told her that I was very happy and that we were actually living together. Guess what happened later that nite when I left...she tried to hook him up with her friend. That pissed me off to no end right there and I have never really been able to see past that from now on because you just don't do that to someone.

So J tells me her plan and that she is going to have her girls spend the nite at the house as well. Big red flag just went up for me. I asked him if Ms. X is going to be there and he said he didn't know but maybe.

I am sorry I just don't feel comfortable with J spending the nite at his friends house with a bunch of drunk women there not to mention that one of them the bride to be tried to hook him up with not caring that he had a live in girlfriend at the time.

Am I sounding pyscho or should I put my foot down on this one? And by putting my foot down I mean I would pick him up from the party around midnite or so.

What would you do?