Off Switch

Thoughts racing but to where as there is no finish line in sight. Raching in my mind in every direction or could thebe chasing? is it me, my past or my future? Chasing what, chasing whom? Is it me, my past or my future? Will my thoughts ever get tired, run out of breath or develop vertigo. It seems as I age they gain momentum. Racing around like the millions of people in New Tork City during rush hour. Will I ever get a chance to sit and let my mind go blank or am I trapped in my thoughts?

How many others think like I do? I can't be the only one who doesn't have an off switch.

I'm Back....

So I took the blog down for awhile because I was searching for employment and I didn't want my name to pop if an employer did a search for me.

Well guess what, last week I started a new job. This was after 7 months of being laid off. I have to say it is with a company that I really like, the people are great and I love being on an active site again. If you don't know, I am in the construction field.

So now I am back, refreshed and better then ever. I realize how truly blessed I am and how much I really have to be thankful for. Seven months and being able to maintain not only my sanity but how I live my life just makes me know how blessed I am.

So here we go again...

Bummed...

Friday I went on an interview and I really wanted this job. I got the call today that I was simply overqualified for the position. This really bums me out because even though it was an entry level position, it paid pretty well and it had room for a lot of advacement.

I was told that it is going to be okay and I truly know it is. I just hate that I oversold myself in the interview even though I was told not to by the recruiter. Sigh. Today is day 113 of being unemployed and I am dying to get back into the work force.

I am just really bummed.

When You Have A Gut Feeling...

It is normally right! Why does it work that way?

I had a situation where my gut was telling me something and no matter how hard I didn't want to believe it and how many times I was told that it wasn't true, after a bit of good research on my part...it is true. And my gut knew it the entire time.

How is it that your gut knows this? What is it that makes you know the truth in the deepest pit of your stomach. And how is it that we as people can take that feeling and push it aside hoping for another answer.

When am I going to learn to trust my gut and not let these people into my life? Now I just have to remind myself not to let this person into my personal life. Sigh. Why can't it be easier? Why does this person want to make it this complicated?

It Has Been Awhile...

I have been out of the blogging world for awhile now and it is because I have been laid off and I don't want to publish anything due to the fact that I don't want a place of potential employment to come across this blog.

I figured that I would continue to write my posts though and when I find employment make my blog visible to the world again...so I write this for myself.

2010 is going to be a year of one big goal for me...to get back into shape. This one will be a little tricky for me though until I get my HUGE tattoo finished. I am 18 hours into it and only have about 6 hours left...yay! And no, I will not be posting any images on my blog. All I will say it covers my ENTIRE left rib cage and 1/3 of my back. It is all sunflower heads and is truly beautiful. It was done by the ever talented Trevor Collis at Iron Age in the Loop. While getting my massive back piece, I can't work out for two weeks after each session and right now we are having sessions every two to three weeks. So that put my next day in the gym on January 27th and than my next session is February 3rd. See my problem!

I would like to drop at least 25 pounds in 2010. I would love to lose around 40 pounds. I know it isn't about inches, etc., but let's just day I would love to be a size 6 on December 31, 2010. It isn't a lofty goal....but still one I will have to really work at and I have never really had to work at my weight...welcome to my 30's! :)

I am still on the hunt for a job. I went on an interview on Friday and even though it is a big pay cut it is something that I believe I would enjoy doing and is a foot in the door at a great company. So I know you aren't reading this, but please cross your fingers for me. It would be a great boost for me to land this position and get back to work.